Sunday, February 28, 2010

Too Much Sadness

This coming month marks the one year anniversary of my brother Lucas' death. It is not any easier to deal with than it has been. To add to the sadness, I found out about an hour ago that my seven year old cousin was in an ATV wreck. He didn't make it. This year has started out so badly. I thought new year=better year than the last. Well, it hasn't shown it. Everything is so sad nowadays... I just keep praying and hoping that everything will work out for the best... *Sigh*

Finally happy... For the moment...

I am so proud of myself! I made up all the work that I couldn't do because of family deaths. I am so relieved! Now all I worry about is, "Did I do a good enough job?". I want to do this. I want to be part of this class! I don't like being left behind! I am so happy and relieved though, that this week finally held nothing more than homework. Going to bed with aching fingers, wrists, neck, and back feels pretty darn good to me right now. At least I accomplished something that I have been wanting to do for a while. I have my fingers and toes crossed for good enough grades to keep me passing. I really want this to work out. I am so thankful for second chances.... Hope everyone is doing okay!

P.s.- Miranda, if you are reading this, I tried to comment on your post about being angry and frustrated, but it wouldn't let me! I just want to let you know that I know exactly what you are going through! I hope everything gets better for you! =)

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Overwhelmed and Stressed OUT!!!

Oh my gracious. I am so overwhelmed and stressed right now. I feel like I can't get anything together. I am getting more depressed about everything. That is really not good for me, because that just invites viruses and sick germs to come to me. Too many family deaths, too much travel, too much, too much, too much!!!! BAH! I am seriously thinking I am on the verge of insanity. How much more of this can I take? *Sighs* I don't know. I just don't know.